My daughters are like an oasis in the desert. They are everything for me
I forgot what am I going to be when I was a kid, but the certain thing is being a single mother is not my plan back then. Divorced in 2011 made me become a single mother with two daughters. The first two years was the hardest. Separation is the only best way for me and my ex husband, but it brings consequences. Consequence that my daughters will lose their father, and consequence that I will have two roles in a time, a father and a mother.
I never regret at all that I ever married my ex husband. In fact, he is not fully a jerk. There still some goodness in him as long I remember him. And my daughters are amazing. They need me to be strong. There was time that I feel like life is not fair for me and questioning why this is happen to me. But in the end, if you have faith, you will understand that this is the way God makes you stronger.
A mother is an angel without wings. I may not the best mother in the world, but i give my best for my daughters to make them happy. And for me, my daughters are the best remedy in this world. I know it sounds cheesy but the fact is I rather choose hearing my daughters said "I love you" than my ex husband does.
Message for other women who just get divorced, give yourself some time. Time to cry, time to get hurt, time to accepting the reality. As time goes by, trust me you are not the same person anymore. No regret, no wound, even you have no hate for your ex husband. Hate is just a barrier for us to move on.